10 Things You Might Not Know About Me

So far I have failed miserably on blogging everyday but I am going to try yet again. I do not want to be writing everyday about the baby journey because so few things happen daily, so I googled for ideas because I have writers block and here is what I came up with for today:

10 Things You Might Not Know About Me

1. I will not walk over any type of grate. I am always scared they are going to cave in when I walk over them. Just some silly irrational fear I have had as long as I can remember.

2. I have started writing 3 different books over the last 15 years and have not finished a single one. Ha!

3. I have a hole in my head, a literal hole in my skull that you can feel with your fingers. Except I hate when I do accidentally feel it because it creeps me out. I obtained this injury from a bicycle accident when I was a kid.

4. I truly enjoy painting and I do not mean on a canvas, I mean a room. I would probably repaint every room in our house multiple times a year if Sexy Husband would let me.

5. I would wear a sari everyday if I thought I could get away with it. I think Indian Sari's are absolutely beautiful. The vibrant colors and fabrics they use are gorgeous and they look so comfortable!

6. I have always thought that Christine should have chosen the Phantom instead of Raoul in "Phantom of the Opera"

7. Even though I can swim very well and love water activities, I still have a very strong fear of water. I especially do not like when I cannot see what is beneath me in the water and therefore do not swim in lakes or rivers and only snorkel/scuba dive in the ocean.

8. I have always secretly wanted to work at a zoo. Though in reality I know it would not be as glamorous a job as my mind's eye sees it.

9. If I had been born into a different moral environment I would have totally been a pole dancer! Not necessarily a stripper but a pole dancer, even though usually the two are synonymous.

10. I will do pretty much anything in front of people, acting, singing, being weird, etc. but I refuse to play the piano to an audience. I really enjoy playing the piano but for me and me alone.

So there ya go, 10 things you might not have known about me. It is really late and I need to be going to sleep so I am out of here!

Until next time....

The Baby Journey with PCOS: Sexy Husband needs to be a giraffe!

The week after Christmas, I went to the zoo with Sexy Husband's family. Now I love the zoo and will take any excuse to go so I was excited to be there plus the weather was absolutely gorgeous to be December.

As we neared one of my favorite animals, the giraffe, I noticed that one was following another around in a circle. The behind giraffe was being quite obnoxious with his continuous following and then it dawned on me what was going on in this area of the zoo!

Miss Giraffe was in heat and Mr. Giraffe was hoping to see some action! Now any other time I probably would have giggled like a schoolchild and moved on but since I am officially a TTCer then I had a whole new perspective on the activities before me.

I stared on in fascination wondering what exactly went on besides the basics in the making of a baby giraffe. Now all this time, before you think I am a big pervert for staring, Mr. Giraffe was still "chasing" (walking) Miss Giraffe around in a circle, every once in a while she would stop and he would think he had the green light then she would walk off again. Talk about a tease! Poor Mr. Giraffe!

Luckily for me, there was one of the main giraffe keepers sitting right there! I struck up a conversation about how it all went down and if they were hoping for the two to actually mate. Oh did I learn a myriad of information.

• Miss Giraffe ovulates every 14 days but only for one day
• Mr. Giraffe has to woo her to get her to even be still long enough for him to see action
• BUT Mr. Giraffe only has to make it in ONE time (tried to put this delicately) and it is almost 100% positive Miss Giraffe will get pregnant!

WHOA!! WHAT?

ONE time and he is DONE?

As a woman I feel sorry for Miss Giraffe because she doesn't get much fun time but as a TTCer I feel jealous that it happens so quickly and at a pretty fail-proof rate!


Oh Miss Giraffe, you big tease, if only you knew how easy you had it!

Until next time...

Things not to say to a woman trying to conceive (especially those who have been trying over a year)

So I have discovered a few sayings that make me want to rip people's arm off and beat them over the head with it when they say them to me. I will share since I am sure many TTCers share my peeviness.


"Your time will come" -really? you think? no we just have been trying all this for the heck of it, we dont really think our time will come! yes, thank you, our rational side is very aware that our time will come but this is one of the last things we want to hear at this moment.

"If you will just relax it will happen" - really? it is extremely hard not to think about the subject when every morning you have to wake up, take your temp, chart it and make sure that you know when you are going to ovulate so you can tie up your husband for three days so that nothing can get in the way of baby dancing. only to then have to wait two weeks to even see if tying your husband was worth the hassle!

From an expectant mother: "we weren't really trying" - well flippideedoda you fertile myrtle! Can you give me a play by play of what "not really trying" is because obviously this "trying" crap isn't working!

"I have heard it is easier to get pregnant at a healthy weight" Thank you very much for calling me fat in a roundabout jerk of a way. Oh yes, these extra 30 lbs that I have around my midsection that make me look pregnant even though I am not are just practice to get me ready for when "my time comes and I relax!" It is the latest craze to become almost obese before getting pregnant, haven't you heard? 
OF COURSE I KNOW I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT, you flapperjack, tell that to my STUPID HORMONES that made me gain the weight in the first place!

"You are young, you have plenty of time" yes, I know many women who did not have children until almost forty or even at forty, but they all (the ones I know) did not get married until a short time before that so I'm sorry if I dont want ten years of marriage before we have children.

Any complaint whatsoever from a pregnant woman - look you fertile myrtle, if you want to live to have that baby you better shut up that complainng around me. I would kill to have your nausea, swollen ankles and back ache. Just because you were relaxed and not really trying when your time came doesn't mean you can complain about it around those of us who are still barren.


Despite my somewhat caustic, and hormonal responses to the above things it is very painful for those who have been trying for a while to hear these. Especially when you are doing everything you can to get pregnant and your time hasn't come, you feel broken, you wonder what is wrong with you that you couldn't "not really try" and succeed. You look at other pregnant women, or women with multiple children and cannot help but compare and say "what did they have or do that i didn't or can't?" Two weeks by agonizing two weeks you hope and pray only to discover your failure.

So if you are a parent then remember to thank God that "your time came" or if you are like me and still waiting, don't give up hope, you are not alone!


Until next time....

The Baby Journey with PCOS: Dye Test

So I had to get the dye test done, the dye test is where they inject dye into the uterus and check to see if the fallopian tubes are open.

I went in on a tuesday and the mom was nice enough to go with me. It was an interesting procedure that involved numbing my cervix and and inserting a small tube inside. Let just say it is not the most comfortable procedure in the world and it is never comfortable as a woman to have your legs spread wide to a man you do not know and are not necessarily attracted to ha ha

My fertility Dr is wonderful and has a great sense of humor, so it did make the time not as uncomfortable as it could have been. He did joke about accidentally spilling some of the numbing liquid but the only side effect would be a numb vagina.

Then he proceeded to tell me at the end that I have a pretty uterus. that is one I have never heard before for sure, a pretty uterus.

In the end everything was great and my tubes were perfectly clear and my uterus beautiful so with that elminated and sexy
husbands test coming back normal, we now just have to get me to ovulate and we can make a baby!

We are tried one more round of clomid, maxed out at the 150 mg, and I must say it definitely "felt" like I ovulated. I wore my poor husband out, I made him baby dance so often that when I was done ovulating I mentioned baby dancing and he screamed in terror ha!

So now we are in the two week wait period to see if we were successful this time. If so then SUPER YAY but if not then it is further into the world of fertility treatments



Until next time....

The Baby Journey with PCOS: An Update

I have not written about the baby journey since August. No I am not pregnant yet which is probably one of the reasons why I have not updated.

August was my first round of Clomid and after psyching myself out with fake symptoms, I was told I did not ovulate and so the next round I told myself I was not going to over-analyze it and so no symptoms presented themselves and again I did not ovulate.

It was mid September before I started the second round so after it was finished I decided that instead of doing the third and final round with my OBGYN that I wanted to head on to the fertility clinic. If the third round did not work I would have to go there anyway.

Sexy Husband and I went on December 5th to the fertility clinic. They gave me a progesterone shot to get my cycle to start then ordered another round of Clomid. SH had to have an analysis, poor guy, can we say awkward! for him.

I love the Dr. He is so great, very nice, with a slightly dry sense of humor which I like. He said that of the couples he had seen lately we were the "Most Likely to Conceive" I felt like I was back in highschool for a moment with the who's who! Instead of "Most Likely to Succeed" we were the "Most Likely to Conceive" ha!

Dr. S, as we will call him, said that once I started my period to call and schedule a "Dye Test" which is where they inject dye into the uterus and X-ray to make sure the fallopian tubes are not blocked.

I will tell you about the dye test, and catch you up to today, tomorrow! Ha! For now I need coffee....

Until next time...

2012 Goals

One of my goals for 2012 is to write every day on my blog. So far i am behind ha ha!

But i will not let that stop me so here is my first post of 2012 brought to you from my android with the blogger app.  :)
I will write again tomorrow.
Until next time ....

The Baby Journey with PCOS: Being a TTC-er

It is an interesting thing when you are are a TTC-er (Trying To Conceive) you live your life in two week increments.
You start the cycle and you wait two weeks or so for the big O (which is no longer orgasm but ovulation) to happen and schedule your life completely around making sure you do the baby dance plenty of times around the big "O".
Then you get to wait another two weeks or so to even know if it was a hit or miss. During this two week wait you are trying to not over-analyze every hiccup that you have or gas bubble because it might be a "symptom". To make matters worse all the possible "symptoms" of pregnancy are also the same "symptoms" that Aunt Flow brings along with her so it could be impending doom instead of impending baby!

My Brain:
Headache....Oh! I have a headache today, maybe that means I am pregnant, but no it is too early, implantation hasn't even happened because it takes 8 to 10 days to happen and we are only on 6 dpo, but then again maybe....
Gas! I have gas, must mean I am pregnant, it could not possibly have anything to do with something I possibly ate that could have given me gas.
My baby toe aches, I am pregnant!!

I have never been more in tune with every possible function that my body can produce in one day though sadly they are most likely not due to pregnancy. I really do try not to obsess over it too much but I cannot help but have it at the back of my mind. Pregnancy is one of my main goals at the moment.

Since I am on Clomid, I did have to go have lab work done on Friday to see if my progesterone levels were indicative of the big O. Since it was Friday I will probably not hear until tomorrow or Tuesday. I feel quite confident that I did ovulate because I had pangs in my right ovary which I cannot remember the last time I felt something like that. It was a good sign to me.

We will see what they say....