Thursday, January 22, 2009

What do I do now?

What do I do now?

This question I think is inevitable in most peoples life. It seems to be a rule in life that at specific periods this question will arise with a much deeper meaning than normal.

When a teenager graduates from high-school.
When a young adult graduates college.
When parents wave goodbye to their child and turn to look at an empty nest.
And many other situations.

I woke today to find that question staring me in the face. I have been avoiding it because I am very good at doing that. I don't have a main goal at this moment and that tilts my world off balance. I have had a main goal for the last two and half decades plus a couple years.

1-4 years old - learn to walk, talk, potty, read, colors, and all other skills required at those ages.
5 - graduate kindergarten
6 - 18 - make it through school without becoming a loser or total screw-up, graduate high-school and hopefully be a well founded young person ready for life.
18-23 - Get a degree so I can move to another city and start my life as an adult
23-25 - Find the love of my life
25-26 - Marry the love of my life, start journey as wife!
27- What do I do now?

Sure I have multiple goals ranging from as small as "vacuuming the house today" to larger ones of "pay off car that we had to buy during holidays due to death of old one" but no major goal.

Now I don't want you to think I am whining or sad about my life. Not at all! I am very blessed to have the best husband in the world who provides enough that I was able to quit a job I loathed. We have a great house with a spoiled rotten cat, wonderful friends, and a great life!

I just feel off-kilter because my main goal is usually what drives all my other decisions. So without a main goal I am faltering.

We do not want children right now so that cannot be the main goal.

I don't consider a healthy marriage a goal, I consider it a lifestyle commitment so that cannot be the main goal.

So here I am trying to figure out...what do I do now?


lime said...

well, what interests drive you. get involved perhaps in a volunteer capacity and see what motivates you. of course, i'd also recommend discussing whatever goals you set with your husband so you can both be on the same works better when you're moving in the same direction.

kari and kijsa said...

Just catching up on our blogging...stopping by to say hello!
kari & kijsa