I am fighting depression.
There you have it.
I experience life through my emotions. I admit it. I am an emotional creature. I usually am a vivacious, creative, life loving person ....until recently.
I am constantly tired, have an underlying blah or sadness in my gut, and just no desire to do anything...like blog.
I am finally saying something on here because as another blog's post reminded me, this is My blog. I write on here for me first, the possible audience is a perk. I am already struggling to write anything and have been moping away even more for fear of "bothering" my readers with "unhappy" posts.
Well sorry readers but this post will not be happy.
Don't get me wrong, I can laugh, I can enjoy a day and have a good ole time. It is just underneath it all is this ever present "sadness" for lack of a better word. I cry at everything and my poor husband is wondering what he married.
To add to it I have a layer of guilt on top of the sadness.
Why you ask?
Because I have absolutely no reason whatsoever to be depressed! Which makes it even more depressing! Vicious cycle!
I am calling my doctor tomorrow. We shall see what can be done.
I don't like this....I want the funny, vivacious, creative girl back!